January 27, 2012

Du:kher kotha


Bochhorer kon somoyta sobtheke kharap lage jigges korle ami nirdwidhay bolbo ei somoyta. ei January-r sheshtuku. asha akangkkha shopoth protishrutigulo beshi purono hoyni kintu notun bhabta itimoddhyei chote gechhe. bhulchuk sariye phutiphata bujiye jiibontake abar ke-jane-kobekar moto jhokjhoke korar jonyo haate somoy poRe achhe mattor 11 maas. ar sobtheke maratmok du:songbadta hochchhe je ekmaas kete jawar por buker moddhye ekta ashonisongket ter pachchhi je ei bochhortao thik ager bochhorgulor motoi katte cholechhe.
Arthat kina jemon chhilo sobkichhu temon-i thakbe abikol. jaha 2011, tahai 2012. amar hoddo boring bNeche thakata tar somosto khNut, khamti, byarthota, hotasha niye jekhane thomke chhilo sekhanei theme thakbe, ek inchi egobena. ar amar iirshay jhapsa hoye jawa chokher samne diye baki sobai tader phule phole dhono dhanye bikoshito jiiboner hasi kanna othha poRa niye shonshon kore bhobishyoter dike chhute jabe.
Ami pother pashe dNaRiye dNaRiye fyalfyaliye dekhbo. hNadar moto.
Kara era? kara odiker aisle-e dNaRiye chapa golay khilkhil kore hase? kara golay rongchonge scarf pNechiye subway-r sNiRi beye bijoyiir moto uthhe ase roj sokal bikel? kara tempo-r mathay tiranga uRiye hoihoi kore Prajatantra Dibase picnic korte jay? kader blog-er patay patay tader poripuurNo jiiboner namcha diner por din aNka hote thake?
Amar je noy, seta apnara bujhtei pere gechhen etokkhoNe. antoto ajker post-e to noy-i. aj amar official monkharaper din. ghorbhorti khelnar majhkhane paa chhoRiye bose, amar esob bisri pocha khelna chaina bole thNot phuliye kannar din. or keno sob achhe amar keno kichchhu nei bole self-pity-te jorojoro howar din.
(Self pity-r Bangla ki hobe? jana thakle janaben anugroho kore.)
Apnara bujhben bhorsay likhchhi. bujhe nijoguNe marjona kore deben. ar jodi ichchhe kore, tobe amar mathay ektu haat-o bulote paren. pithh alto kore chhNuye bolte paren, sob to thik-i achhe Kuntala, kichhu to bigRoyni kotthao. Sobar jiiboner pass fail-er maapkathiiguloto ek noy.
Bechara Kuntala, du:khii Kuntala, here bhuut Kun.......
“Are you Ahmed’s sister?”
Du:kher gojodontominar huRmuRiye dhose poRe ar ami nijeke baRir dorjar samne abishkar kori.
“Are you Ahmed’s sister?”
Ato du:kher moddhyeo bhagyer chhappor phNuRe samne ese poRa sujogtake chinte bhul hoyna amar. Kuntalar asohoniiyo astitwer kholos chhNiRe beriye nijeke ‘Ahmed’s sister’ bole duniyar kachhe chaliye dewar mokkhom sujog. Identity bodle mohanogoriir jonaroNye bemalum mishe jawar. mone mone ami nijeke sei churi kora identity-te sposhto dekhte pai. Ahmed-keo. golgal motasota shantoshishto amar theke boyose ektu beshi-i chhoto bhaitake. bikele khelte jawar aage tar gaal tipe dhore ami chul aNchRe dichchhi.
“Are you Ahmed’s sister?”adhoirjo gola abar jante chay. proshnokortar dike takate giye ghaR besh khanikta nichu korte hoy amay. shondamarka ekti balok komore haat diye bhuru kNuchke takiye ache.
Asombhob lobh hoy janen. hNya bole dite. moner bhetor sotyi-mitthyer dhundhumar tug-of-war shuru hoye jay, hridpindo bhoyanok jore jore laphay, mathar bhetor bhalomondo thikbhul sob guliye ghonto hoye jay, ar amar kromosho shukiye morubhuumi howe jawa golar bhetor theke gultir moto chhitke beroy, “No.”
Nijer kanke nijei bishwas korte parina ami. gordobh kothakar.
PoriNoti ja hobar tai hoy. Shonda balok britha somoy noshto na kore chhut lagay. ami nijeke tante tante tala khule ghore dhuke Sofa-r kachhe aatmosomorpoN kori. du:kher bojha ar boite na pere.
Baire theke kochi golar chNechamechi kane ase. khela jome uthhechhe. hotobhagyo Ahmed-ke chhaRai. huRmuR, dhupdhap, thelatheli, hasahasi. Sofar opor chitpat hoye poRe ami tol paina, eto sukhe ki kore thake ora? ki kore thaktam ami?
Ekta bochhorer sathe arekta bochhorer kono parthokyo thakto na bolei hoyto, ke jane. konta ‘89, konta ‘90, konta ‘91 kichhui to mone nei. khali mone achhe maroon tunic, ar tarpor khoyeri paaRer sada shaRi. Shikkhaniketan, tarpor Bidyaniketan. bNete thakte dine 4te period, tarpor khanikta lomba hote 7ta kore. Shiit Grishmo Borsha Sharat-o guliye gechhe. khali mone achhe bochhore ekbar kore School-er mathh juRe RadhachhuRar holud chador. sokal sondhye kichchhu nei, achhe khali 10ta bochhor joRa ek diirgho dupur, ar dupur-rode moner sukhe khele beRachchhi ami. Sunscreen chhaRai.
Sofa chheRe uthhe haat paa dhuye, jama-tama chheRe, apnader kachhe ghyanghyan kore kNaduni gaite giye etokkhoNe amar monkharap pogarpar hoye gechhe. ekhon ko’din nishchinti. jotodin na samner bochhorer January-r shesh soptahota aschhe abar.

4 comments:

  1. aami post ta porte porte bhabchi khaisey re! kuntala debi ke emon "kafka meets nietzsche" shonacchey keno...

    tarpor post e shesh ta pore bhorsha pelam.

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  2. khaisei bote Shampa. Nietzsche banan korte gelei ami kNede pheli protyekbar, orokom shonale ar dekhte hobe na.

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  3. Majhe majhe besh mon kharap-monkharap holey kintu amaro monta besh bhalo hoye jaay. Eta mone hoy Bangalider ekta swabhab jeta Chandrabindoo'r bhashay bolte gele Janmo thekei sentu kheye shohid-shohid bhongi. Jaai hok, asha kori du:kho-tu:kho apatoto bidaay hoyechhe. Apnake "Happy Saraswati Pujo" janiye rakhlam ei sujoge.

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  4. apnakeo Happy Saraswati Pujo Sugata. maa Saraswati swoyong apnar ph.d.r khatay ar DSLR camera-y bhor korun ei kamona kori.

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