March 04, 2012

Appraisal


Office jawar jonyo griishmo, borsha, fall ba spring, kono season-i bhalo noy bote, kintu sobtheke kharap ni:sondehe ‘appraisal season’.

Jeta amader office-e cholchhe ekhon.

Bhabben na ami amar appraisal niye chintito. dekhe bojha na geleo, jo hoga dekha jayega, etai amar jiiboner niiti. tachhaRa jai hokna keno baRabaRi kichhu hobena bolei amar bishwas. khub bhalo kaaj korini abar khub kharap-o korini. baarkoyek haatepaye dhore deadline 24 ghonta baRate hoyechhe bote kintu kauke mukher opor “amar dwara hobena nije bujhe nin” bolini. kajei talegole paar peye jabo ebareo.

Majhari howar asubidhe achhe anek, kintu subidhei beshi.

Tobu je amar ajkal office-e jawar kotha mone poRlei mukhta ajante pocha badame kamoR poRar moto hoye jachchhe tar jonyo daayii amar gutikoy sohokormii. apnar office-eo enara achhen nirghat. sob office-ei thake. Office, kachhari, school, college, university sorbotro thake. erai poriikkha hall theke beriye lokjonke dhore dhore proshnopotre tuke ana uttor melate lege jay, poriikkhar aager raattir 10:37-e phone kore akash theke poRe, “ seki Pure Exchange Equilibrium korisni, ota to aschhei”, dinner-er por adday ceiling-er dike dhNoya chheRe udas mukh kore bole, ke highest pabe se to jana kothai, omuk sir-er nariijatir proti pokkhopatitwer kotha ki ar jante baki achhe karo?

Pure Exchange General Equilibriumami ekhono bhalo kore bujhini, porikkhar ager raate bojhar cheshta korle poriNoti ki hote pare anuman korte parchhen nischoy

Nije ashtoprohor tension-e theke sei tension loker ghaRe jotrototro chalan korai eder swobhab. suurjo je protyekdin sokalbela puurbodike uthhchhe, setao eder mote kono ekta brihottoro shoRojontrer angsho.

Amar jiibondorshon abar eto jotil noy. keu poriikkhay highest pele, ta se chhele meye goru chhagol jei pak na keno, nirghat beshi poRechhe bolei peyechhe ei juktitai amar mathay ase. temni bhalo kaaj korle appraisal bhalo hobe, maine baRbe, noile baRbena, etai amar soja hiseb.

Je hisebta, amar protibeshii Mr. W’r mote, agagoRai bhul. sholo-aanai phNaki. bishoyta naki motei eto sojasapta noy, er moddhye naki ajosro pNyach, akothyo politics, bistor doladoli, dedar paa-chatachati ar entar lyang-maramari achhe.

Coffee room-e dNaRiye edikodik dekhe gola namiye druto haate chini gulte gulte jokhon tini sei maramarir kotha amake bishode bojhate laglen, ki bolbo, amar ghaRer kachher khuchro chulgulo sob khaRa hoye uthhlo. Director naki meeting-e bolechhen, ebochhor koRa haate appraisal hobe. temon temon hole maine baRar bodole komeo jete pare, ‘let go’ hoye jawao bichitro noy.

Ami konomote dhNok gile gola bhijiye niye bollam, “koi ami to janina esob...” W amar proti probol anukompa hene bollen, seta ki kore hoy tini bujhte parchhen na karoN office suddhu sobbai naki jane.

Tarpor bodhoy amar mukhta dekhe tNar maya holo. Coffee hate niye beronor somoy bondhutwopuurNo chokh motke tini bole gelen, amar chinta korar karoN-i nei. chinta korbe tara jara ghonoghono deadline miss korechhe.

Serechhe.

Coffee mathay uthhlo. ami desk-e phire hiseb korte laglam ebochhore ko’bar amar deadline miss hoyechhe. tarpor mone poRlo gotokal sokalbela director-er sathe corridor-e mukhomukhi hoyechhilo. muhuurtota ami baarbaar mathar moddhye rewind korte thaklam. Director-er body language decode korar cheshta korte laglam praNpoN. “Hi how are you” bolar somoy je phike hasita hesechhilen tini, tar kotota nichhok abhyese, ar kotota “eibar ter pabe bachhadhon”, uddhar korte giye oi choRa AC-te boseo amar kopal gheme uthhlo.

30 minute por ar amar kono sondehoi roilo na je jodi keu “let go” hoy, tobe seta ke.  

E-o chhilo kopale, bhogoban?

Konomote angul steady kore speed dial korlam, opaar theke shok-rog-taap-hora gola bhese elo kaane, “ki hoyechhe Sona??”

Ar bNadh manlo na. hNaumau kore ja bollam ati koshte ta uddhar kore maa haha hese uthhlen. tarpor haasi thamiye bollen, “chakri gele gotmotiye baRi chole asbi. maa meyete chhade madur pete shuye shuye akasher tara gunbo. bNacha jabe.”

Badhyo hoyei amake jhNajhiye uthhe bolte holo je yaarkir somoy noy eta motei. maa jante chailen, kaaje gnanoto phNaki diyechhi kina? ichhe kore? phNaki marbo bolei? Office-e karo sathe paaye paa badhiye jhogRa korechhi kina? Boss-er kachhe mitthye mitthye karo naame lagiyechhi kina? protishodh newar jonyo?

Motei na. kokkhono na.

“Tahole kono chinta nei.” maa abhoy den. baRi giye borong naake besh khanikta sorsher tel dhele ghumonor poramorsho den. sheshe mone koran, “bhalo loker kharap hoyna Sona.”

Ami nishchinto hoi. shoto shoRojontrer theory-r cheye ei pNach shobder bakyota mone rakha eksho guN soja. ta se thik bhul jai hok na keno. sobtheke boRo subidhe hochchhe, kothata jodi mene ni, tahole bhalo appraisal pele bhalo lagbe, kharap pele bujhbo nijer doshe peyechhi. du:kho hobe, tobe anek kom.

Appraisal-ke tai ar dorachchhi na motei. jo hoga dekha jayega. ki bolun?


12 comments:

  1. arre tomar post porar agei dekhlam official mail e appraisal form chole eshechhe.. 1 week er modhye fill-up kore pathate hobe. sobe otake sosomyane ograjhyo kore abantor khullam, ekhaneo dekhi appraisal er goppo...
    oi sob corporate politics er kochkochi amakeo oneke aaj o bojhanor chesta kore. ami bishesh bujhte parina bolei hoyto bhogobaner dewa duto kaaner "tunnel-effect" ta use kori.
    osob bhebo na.. mayer kotha ekdom mokhhomm.. sudhu ei samanyo appraisal noy, jiboner brihottoro frame eo ekdom perfectly fit kore jabe oi aptobakyo.. dekhe nio.. :) tumi ki shahrukher fan? tahole oi dialogue ta mone koro "achhe logo ke saath hamesha achha hota hai" :)

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    1. Shahrukh-er fan to botei. ek jiibone eta taka kamiyechhen bhodrolok, admire na kore thaki ki kore. bhorsa dile dekhe bhalo laglo Sohini. kaaner tunnel effect chalu kore office jabo kaal theke mone kore.

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  2. uufff.. ager comment ta gelo na bole arekbar type korlam.. ekhon dekhi dutoi chole gechhe.. ekta delete kore diyo pls

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  3. Amadero ekhon appraisal er somoy! Ki moha jhamela. Amio oboshyo office e karur paye pa diye jhogra korini ar icche kore phanki marbo boleo phanki marini (at least mone porche na) tai asha korchi sob thik thak i hobe :-)
    Tobe erokom sohokormi to thakbei, ekti mohila achen, tini mone koren sobai shorojontro kore take pyanch e felbar cheshtay ache, tai tini CEO theke jharudar obdi sobai ke sandeho koren :D :D Tobe era thake bole bhalo o lage majhe modhye. Besh hashi paye pore eder katha bhable, setai ba kom ki??

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    1. hNya eisob public achhe bole tao office-er khanikta somoy kate. na thakle aro boring hoto, baapre. tomar appraisal khub bhalo hobe Sayari. amar shubhechchha roilo.

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  4. kortripokkho ke abantor e pathiye dao. tahole tomar bhalo appraisal aar promotion atkay key!

    tobe SRK type dialogue'r effect er cheye telugu villain rami reddy'r "tension lene ka nehi, tension dene ka" better kaaj kore, mone hoy.

    and if all else fails there is always "mere paas maa hai". that never fails :-)))

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    1. bolchho? ekkhana link pathiyei debo tahole na hoy. kintu Shampa seriously, tomar GK-r bahoba na diye parchhi na. ami to ayaddin dialogue-ta diyei kkhanto thaktam, tumi abar khNuje baar korechho ke prothom kothata bolechhilen, tao abar hindi na telegu, tao abar hero na villain. dhonyo.

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  5. appraisal sombondhye amar personal konoi obhigNyota nei jodio, tobe oi porikhyar aager din "ota to aschei" ta haare haare bhugechi ami :P

    esob e ekdom kaan na dewai mongol. kakimar kotha ekdom 16 aana thik. amio kono kichu te upai na pele oi bhabi.. bhalo loker kharap hotei pare na ;)
    tomay all the best janalam :)

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    1. dhonyobad Atreyee. maayera kokhonoi bhul honna keno bolo to? joghonyo ekebare.

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  6. Ami kintu apnar katha mante parlamna puropuri e khetre. Wiproy ami 3 te appraisal dekhe eitai bujhechhi je sob-i maya. Kaj korte habe, appraisal er asha na korei. Tobe hNya, bhalo lokeder khub kharap kichhu hote dekhini eta thik. Kajei apni ekdom ghabRabenna.

    Oi "tension deneka" shune ekta mojar ghatona mone poRlo. Ami takhon freepool-e. Ami appraisal form-e bhalo bhalo katha like timely submit korleo amar ex supervisor jini tini recently UK transfer hoyechhen bole tini form ta joma korenni. Tin bar reminder dewa satteo korenni. Ebar deadline er aager din head office theke ke ekjon baRobabu mail kore humki diyechhen je appraisal fill karoni to? ebar tomar appraisal jor kore close kore debo, ME rating diye (ME = Meets Expectations). Sedin amar mejajta kono karone kharap chhilo bodhoy, se bechara bhadrolok bujhteo parlenna ki holo, tar boss ke CC kore mail korlam: Humki te bhoy paina. Appraisal ta je puropuro prohoson se to janai achhe. Amar boss ke chaap dewar murod nei, ami je kina ek mas aage fill korechhi taake ME debe bole bhoy dekhachchho? Porer bar theke ami ar fill-i korbona. Taholei to force close korbe ME diye? Dujonkar-i samay bNachbe.

    5 minute er modhye Bangalore theke phone. Bujhlam oi humki dewar byapartay tNaar boss ese tNaake jheRechhen. Tini kNapa kNapa golay (bhoye na, raage) khuub mishti kore amay bojhalen je tini naki motei humki dite channi, ota amar bojhar bhul hoyechhe. Appraisal ta bhishon important ekta process, setake "force close" korben bolatai tNaar anyai hoyechhe. Bikeler modhye amar UK te bosa ex supervisor (tinio amar mail er loop e chhilen) appraisal close kore dilen.

    ME pelam, bolai bahulyo.

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    1. ki joghonyo Sugata. Boss holei ki erokom hoye jay loke? ei jonyo ami chhotobela theke bhebe rekhechhilam chanachurer dokan debo, jekhane ami-i amar boss.

      jai hok, ME peyechhen to peyechhen, tate apnar je kichhu toskayni se to apnio dekhchhen, amrao dekhchhi, ar apnar oi office-er swoiracharii shashokdol-o dekhchhe. kajei, apnar kotha motoi, sob maya.

      golpo poRe khub bhalo laglo, mone bol-bhorsa pelam. dhonyobad.

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