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Bidyasagar bohudin holo more bNechechhen, ma baba gurumoshai traffic-pulish air-hostess ebong boyose boRo tabot praaNiir kotha mene chole Gopal-sodrisho 'subodh balok' hoye othar gourber din-o astomito. Ekaaler moniishira (jotha biduushii Rowling) borong bole thaken, mene-na-cholatai asole protibhar lokkhoN. amra jara jonme thekei, boyos ebong size-e boRo jekono kichhur kotha akkhore akkhore mene chole, 'ki baddhyo!!' haattali kuRochhilam, tara asole moddhyomedhar prokrishtomo nomuna chhaRa ar kichhui na. jara na-mene-cholar sahos rakhe, tader hatei thake poribortoner chabikathhi. joragrosto somajke ghaaR dhore bodle jodi keu dey, tobe tarai debe. Ami romanchito. ei jene je, emon dosyi-damal-bNadhonchhaRa-poroyahiin-praaNer abhaab nei amar charpashe. Seat belt bNadhte bola hochchhe bolei je bNadhte hobe, emon merudondohiinotay eNra bhogenna. Plane matite namar ghoshoNa hoye gechhe ebong laptop bondho korar nirdesh dewa hoyechhe bolei je seta potropath...

' House Hunters' dekhte bose anekdin porjonto amar mathay dhuktona, loke baRi kinte gele 'Resale Value'r khNoj kore keno. BaRita jodi bikri-i kore debe, tahole kinchhe keno!! BaRi purono hobe, rannaghorer dewale telkali jombe, bosar ghorer dewale chair thele rakhte rakhte daag poRbe, ghulghulite choRai-er basa, Bibekananda-r chhobi soralei niche notuner moto jhokjhoke rong, prokash na korte para durdanto raag dorjar pallar opor proyog, ebong pholsworuup ardhek khule aasa jhulonto chhitkini......tobe na bojha jabe, lokjon thaake baRitay. thaake, chNechiye jhogRa kore, chokher jol phele, mukhe kichhu na bolo bhalobase, raag hoy, rog hoy, sere othhe. Ami je baRitay jonmechhilam, ebong ekhono je baRitatei majhe majhe phiri, se baRita na dorshondharii, ebong guNer bichareo thake passmarks dewa shokto. goto ardhoshotabdii dhore basindara nijeder proyojon, morji ebong ruchimoto baRitake bhengechhe, churechhe, juRechhe. 'baRita'r cheharata kirokom dNa...

' Personal Space' shobdota kintu besh golmele. Na , inverted comma tomma diye shuru korlam bole emon bhabar karoN nei je ami ebaar 'personal space'wala-der jhheRe kapoR porabo. amio mone praaNe bishwas kori, protiti manusher nijoswo 'bubble' achhe, kane ipod gNuje, baki prithibiitake sei 'bubble'-er baire ghaaRdhakka diye bar kore dewar moulik adhikar achhe. ebong keu gaaye poRe sei 'bubble' fatiiye dite chaile tar 14 purush uddhar korar adhikar-o. Ami shudhu ektu ghNete jai majhe majhe. Amader class-e ekti chhele achhe, jar sathe goto 4 bochhore aalap, asfuuto "How're you doing?" othoba thNot tipe ekta mukhobyadan, jeta ultodiker lok pherot dile 'haasi', ar na dile 'ami-to-just-mukhmondoler-exercise-korchhilam'-er beshi egoyni. Eibela bole rakhi, ini sobar sathei mepe haasen, mepe kotha bolen. eka amake dekhte paren na bole eRiye cholen emon noy. Tate asubidhe kichhu nei. ami boichitre b...

Amake apni 'boring/meaningful-kothopokothon-chalate-aparog/intellectually challenged' bole jotokhushii gaal paaRte paren, kintu small talk-er bishoy hisebe ekhono amar prothom ebong ekmatro pochhondo aabhawa porjalochona. "ebochhor to thanda poRloi na", "kagoje to likhechhe nimnochaap hobe", "global warming-er chote moshai sob calender guliye gechhe" gochher topic niye ami sotsaahe apnar songe boke jete raji aachhi, Haripal theke Howrah, Chandni chowk theke Chawri Baazar, othoba Columbus theke Cincinnati. Kintu bishwas korun, amar absolutely kono idea nei economic recession kobe shesh hobe. " Sotyi bolchhi sir, ami janina horodhonu ke bhengechhe. jokhon bhanga hochhilo, ami tokhon sekhane chhilam na sir." Economic recession na hoy haaler byapar. 15 ghonta nonstop flight-e kNadune bachchar moto (apnar bachhar kotha bolchhi na, apnar pasher seat-er bhodroloker bachcha) klantihiin 'inflation' ar Share-bajarer nity...

Sokal 5:30 theke 6:30 morning walk, snan breakfast sere 9:30 r moddhye office. 9:30 theke 12:30 porjonto first paper-er data work. 12:30 theke 12:45 er moddhye quick lunch (eta ektu beshi ambitious, emonki list-e lekhar pokkheo, kajei nimraji hoye ami lunch-er jonyo adhghonta boraddo kori. songe matha neRe boli, hobena hobena Kuntala, 30 minute dhore sandwich kheye keu kokhono Nobel Prize payni). lunch-er por bikel 4 te porjonto second paper-er literature review. ekta 15 minuter cha break. ei break ta nehat networking korte hoy bole newa. noyto cha kheye noshto korar moto somoy amar haate nei. tarpor shesh bus-ta jotokkhoN na aaschhe totokhhoN dombondho kore kaaj. dinner bhule geleo kkhoti nei. nawa khawa na bhulle ar sadhona kiser. diner sheshe dhNukte dhNukte baRi phire bichhanay showa matro ghum. Erokom list, hubahu na holeo, eri ektu unish-bish, amar baRite jotrototro poRe achhe. table-e, fridge-er gaaye, bathroom-er aaynay, cupboard-er dorjay. computer screensaver tao ekta lis...

Amar ei muhuurte 11 ta email account. Gmail 8 ta, Rediffmail 1 ta, Yahoo 1 ta, ar 1 ta office-er. Protyekta account khola, ebong maintain korar pechhone akatyo jukti achhe. Rediffmail- tar position-tai ja ektu dhhile. 10 bochhor aage, Bethune college-er pasher golir ghupchi cyber cafe-te bose khola, oiti amar jiiboner prothom email account. jesob loker sathe amar oi thikanar madhyome jogajog chhilo, tader pray keu-i aar bNeche nei. Account-ta ekhon amar jotorokom na-manushik jogajoger jonyo byabohrito hoy. soptahe ekbar kore dhuke New York & Company, Macy's, CVS Pharmacy-r bhalobese pathaono offer delete kore beriye aasi. Kajei byaparta ekebare useless-o noy. Ei account-tate aboshyo aaro nanarokom interesting prostab aase. se prosonge gele amar blog-er pathhok sonkhya ratarati 3 theke 30000 perobe. ta sotweo songjom practice korchhi :(... Next , yahoo. eta actually rediffmail-er thekeo faltu. University-r Indian Association-er aayojito Diwali B...

Bideshe poRte aasar somoy, career songkranto uchchhakangkha, athoba prothom bishwe dhokar chhaRpotro pawar glamour chhaRao ar ekta ichhe aneker monei thake. gondii chheRe beronor saadh. Pujoy jemon kore bhog khetam, Thanksgiving-e temon kore turkey khabo, St. Patrick's Day-te sobuj ronger jama pore michhil-e hNatbo, Halloween-e hasyokor naak jodi laganor sahos nao kore uthte pari, Jellyfish seje aasa gublu shishur jonyo candy kine jomiye rakhbo. Sob utsob-i niyom kore palon kora hoy. ghore bose tumul adda mere, athoba baire khete giye. Thanksgiving-e sobai mile ranna-o kore khawa hoy, Halloween-e adbhuutdorshon tupi pore pub-e giye naachteo dekhechhi amar anek porichito lokke. kintu jai korina keno, sheshporjonto sobguloi, aro ekta bangla-bola-practice-korar class-e poriNoto hoy. Bochhorer por bochhor dhore eki ghotonar punorabritti. ami jokhon bhabtei partam na, bidesher maatite boseo amar bangali chhaRa kono bondhu hobena, amar senior-ra mone mone sotyi-ta jan...

Apnar purse/wallet-er bhetorer sei chhoto boitar kotha mone achhe? Chorom asubidhejonok, inefficient, khamoka jayga newa, opranter lok already nombor bolte shuru kore diyechhen, ebong amake likhte hobe, emon crucial muhuurte bag haatRe jake khNuje pawa lottery pawar theke kichhumatro kom noy, sei phonebook tar kotha? KhNut dhorte chaile prothom paata thekei shuru kora jay. keu ki kokhono personal details-er paatay tax consultants-der naam likhechhen? othoba blood group? othoba driving license renew korar date? Oi sari sari STD/ISD nombor, jodi apni amar moto praayandho na hon, tahole jodio ba udhhar kore uthte paren, seta kon kaaje laagbe? Germany-te thaka maasi, othoba Georgia-y thaka pisemoshai-ke jogajog korte gele free-te skype khule boslei hoy. ek mile lomba ekta nombor dial kore ghupchi booth-er bhyapsa gorome dNaRiye chitkar kore, "shunte pachho?" ebong aro chitkaar kore, "kintu ami shunte pachhi na", bolar din chole gechhe bohujug holo. ...

Ekta manushke arekta manusher sathe guliye na phelar jonyo (chena jana bhoyanok shokto byapar, kajei amar syllabus-er baire) kotogulo 'marka' maarar dorkar hoy? Naam thikana, babar naam, lingo, dhormo, desh, bhaasha. Achha , shikkhagoto jogyota, marital status, gaayer rong. Aaro chai? lomba bNete, roga mota, naak chyapta-tNikolo, chokh soru-potolchera. Apnar list-o jodi amar list-er moto dekhte hoy, tahole khoob rude shonaleo bolte badhhyo hochhi, apni moshai 'living under a rock'. Rock-er niich theke beriye chokh mele takiye dekhun, apni jokhon Rip Van Winkle-ke lojja debar moto nidra jachhilen, totokkhoNe duniya kothay pNouchhe gechhe. X , Y, Z periye notun projonmo borNomalar nagaler baire pNouchhe, Pluto becharake, sref gaayer jore Nobogroho club theke ardhochondro dewa hoyechhe, ar manusher buddhi (ami aapni ekhono nijeder je projatir sodosyo bhabar promaad-poshoN kori) emon beRechhe, je mukh khulte na khultei, tara dhore phelchhe ke feminist, ke CPM, ke...

Networking , jiibondharoNer jonyo nishwas newar thik porei jar gurutwo, tar angsho hisebe kichhu kichhu 'Happy Hour'- e jawar abhignota hoyechhe amar. uddyeshota holo, Friday night-e sobai mile paanbhojon kore bonding ebong contacts (actually, shudhu contacts) baRano. Idea ta dibbi, tobe amar definition-er happiness-er sathe tar kono duursomporker aatmiiyotao nei. Chhotobelay chhade maayer shaaRi taangiye feast (bolte giye bujhlam, shobotar sathe kotodin bade dekha holo abar) amar prothom goNobhojoner smriti. chNada bolte chhotoder matha pichhu 5 taka, ar boRoder 10 taka. se chNaday ki khawa hoyechhhilo seta kichhui mone nei, kintu baagane maa jethhira bose ranna korchhilo, ar chhotora laphiye jhNapiye moha utsahe kaak taRachhilo, ar sob miliye ki bhiishoN moja hoyechhilo, seta siki shotabdii poreo sposhto mone achhe. Amader paRay aboshyo bochhorer bNadha besh kichhu din goNobhojoner jonyo dhaarjo chhilo. DolpuurNimar raat tader moddhye smritite sobtheke beshi uj...

Procholito bishwas jai hok na keno, baje bokte geleo ekta minimum bishoyer dorkar hoy (shokher baje bokiyeder kotha janina, tobe jara byapartake seriously ney, tader hoy) ebong sotyikarer lekhokder jemon 'writer's block', baje bokiyeder serokom aproyojoniiyo bishoyer abhaabe kaalebhodre 'matha chulkono' uposorger kotha shona gechhe. Se sob kkhetre, sohoj pothyo, bachcha niye goppo fNaada. Suitably cute, nijeder clown banate ektuo bhiito noy, ebong 'boring' bole naam kenar jonyo je jinista sobtheke beshi joruri, political correctness, seta jara ekhono practice kore othar somoy payni, tara jodi amake ei bondhyatwo theke uddhar korte na pare, tobe keu i parbe na. Amader bikhyato shukrobarer adday ekta common bishoy holo 'false position-e poRar' goppo. sara soptaho jara nijera er shikar hochhe, soptahaante tara jodi anyer henostha howar golpo shune anondo paay, tate sadism-er kichhu nei. Ebong hiseb nile chomke jete hoy je kot...

Mofoswol ar metro city-te beRe othar moddhye tofaat thake kina, ebong thakle kothay kothay thake se niye abantor adday (torko bolatai beshi upojukto) ami amar nogoNyo jiiboner besh koyekta shukrobaarer sondhye khoroch korechhi. Tobe ekta bishoy niye kono sondeho nei. amader dakati, shohure dakatir theke anek beshi chancholyokor. Shohore goromer dupure dhuupkathhi bikri korte ese flat-e dhuke bonduk dekhiye takakoRi goyna niye bhagalba howar je procholon, tar tulonay mofoswoler daakati kaalipuujor raat. Amar chhotobelay, bhabteo bhalo laage, ami erokom gotakoyek paRa-jagano, saaRa-phelano, haaR-kNapano dakati dekhechhi. Amar jokhon 3 4 5 bochhor, tokhon kono kono raate asposhto chitkare ghum bhenge jeto. ghor kaatte kaatte ter petam, baire prochur awaaj ar bichhanay maa nei. moshaari tule beriye, andhokaare saabdhaane choukaathh dingiye samner ghore ese dekhtam maa thakuma pisi, bhiito, uttejito mukhe dNaaRiye. ar baba kaka byasto hoye jaamar botam lagate lagate choti golachh...

" Sona , ami aagei bolechhilam kina?" Ek kotha ekshobar bolar jonyo jodi kono prize thake, ei bhodromohila haaste haaste, bochhor bochhor seta niye beriye aasben. Goto 29 bochhor dhore jini ek plate paka pNepe niye ese bolte paren, "aha, ekta kheyei dekhona, bhalo-o to lagte pare." Jini borof poRchhe shune meyeke potropaathh boutupi (dhore nichhi ei bostuutir songe sobaar alpobistor porichoy aachhe, jNaara janenna tNaader jonyo, baalokder jemon monkeycap, baalikader temni boutupi. protyek shiite ja bojropaater moto maathay neme aase) porar aadhesh den. ebong er protikriyay tNaar mostisheshker susthota somporke sei meye sondeho prokash korle amlaanbodone bolte paren, "boka, boutupi porle je koto bhalo dekhay, seta jodi jantis." Office -e ekirokom poristhitite ekirokom bhabe react kore, ekirokom afshosh, ebong abodharito bhabe sei bhuler punorabritti. EkjoRa choti je karo saradine etobar harate pare, tao ektai baRir mod...

Aj sondhyeta amader paaRay anyrokom kaatbe. Mondirer samner mathhtuku juRe ekta asthaayii tripol-er chhauni khaaRa kora hoyechhe already. samner dike maatite mota chador pata, bachchara bosbe sekhane, ar pechhone kichhu chair. puurbo projonmer jonyo songrokkhito. mondirer chatal-e jhNaat poRechhe anekdin por. bikelbela Basukaku ese baksho khule taar-er baandil ar jontropaati baar kore kaaje lege gechhe. Mike fit kora hoyechhe, duto extra joralo aalo, ar MoNidir chhader koNe ekta chonga mike. Mike dhore Basukaku bolchhe, "1 2 3 4 5, mike testing, hello hello, mike testing............" Prothome aasbe chhotora, jara dekhbe, ar jaara gaan gaibe, naachbe, kobita bolbe tarao. Mike -e sobaike taRataRi aasar anurodh janay Parthoda, baarbaar. karoN aakasher chehara bhalo na. kokhon jhoR uthe tripol uRiye niye jaay bola jay na. Monchosojja bolte, pechhone chhoto ekta table-er opor robithakurer ekta chhobi, golaay mala, dudike rojoniigondha. taar saamne dNaaRiye...

Porshu raate Ghosh-jethhi johkon office theke phirchhilo, andhokaar golitaay, cycle-e chapa duto chhele taan mere jethhir golar haar niye chompot diyechhe. Protyashamotoi , paaRar aain-srinkhola poristhiti niye jol jotota ghola howa dorkar chhilo, tar bodole jethhi-r kopaale binipoysaar gyaan-i jutechhe beshi. "are, ekjon shikkhito mohila jodi etuku na bojhen, raatebirete sonaar goyna pore rastaghate beron, tobe chhintai na howataai aaschorjer." Akaatyo jukti. ebong sulobh. Ei prihibiir joto lok amake apomaan korchhe, protaroNa korchhe, manusher nyuunotomo prapyo morjada dite aswiikar korchhe, se sob amar doshe. karoN tarai swabhabik. ami je tader victim hochhi, seta shudhu promaaN kore je ami koto boRo gadha. byas. Jethhir golar haar chhintai-er ghotonata hoyto nitantoi chhNichke churi. ebong sei ghotonar protikriyaar moddhye guRho samajik tatporjo khNujte jawa paranoia. kintu ei eki jukti emon anek jaaygay lagsoi gNuje dewa jay, ebong ahoroho dewa h...

Amar productivity ekhon tunge. Ebela obela notun idea mathay aschhhe. segulo niye riitimoto bhabna chinta korchhi. Data ghNatchhi. chaa-er break 5 periye shoshtho minute-e pNouchholei bibek mokkhom kaamoR dichhe. sohokormiira kaaj chhaRa anyo aajebaje bishoyniye mukh khullei ( football, Times Square-e boma, advisor-er divorce), ami thokas kore chayer cup namiye rekhe akusthol chheRe pitthtaan dichhi. Youtube , Hulu egulo ekhon anyo groher binodon. Ar jara esob dekhe kalatipaat kore tara anyo groher jiib. Ekhon amar swopner ekmatro ebong ekochhotro adhikar non-balanced Panel data-r. amar jiibon, endogeneity chhaRa, completely somosyamukto. amar confusion shudhu fixed na random effect, sei niye. Na , ami ekhono pagol hoye jaini. Jodio ekta project-er deadline asonno. jetar sathe oporer shobdogulor tilmatro somporko nei. amar ekhon nawa khawa bhule oi kaajta korar kotha. nahole kopale asiim dukkho achhe. Ebong thik seijonyoi amar kaajtar dike takate...

Kichhu kichhu abhignota shoto punoraabrittiteo jiirNo hoyna. Sonar Kella cinemata dekha amar, ebong amar bishwas aro aneker kachheo serokomi ekta abhignota. SadharoNoto cinema-ta dekhte bose ami Feluda (haata gotano panjabi ar du-anguler phNake algochhe dhora sadakaathi niye Soumitro buddhijiibi bangalir chironton sex symbol) ar Topse (ejaabot sob Topse-r moddhye amar favourite) ar Jatayu-r (agamii 10000 bochhorer jonyo sobar favourite) dik theke chokh pherate parina. sedin hothat ki kore jeno Feluda-r bosar ghorer dike chokh poRlo. Athocho chokhe poRar moto kichhui nei. anaaRombor, baahulyoborjito. HGTV ar lifestyle magazine gulote jerokom ghorbaRi dekhay, ami jerokom baRite kono ekdin thakar dibaswopno gopone lalon kori, serokom ektuo na. Jerokom ghore dhuklei apni ghorer maaliker 'personality' somporke ekta sposhto aaNch peye jaben. ghorer ronger theme-er sathe match kore mejher forash, kkhoNe kkhoNe bodlano mejajer sathe taal melano mood lighting, ...

" Na " bolte na para, rog ba roger uposorgo (aasol rogta hoyto lojja, bhoy, baRabaRi rokom bhodrotabodh ityadi) jai hok na keno, besh common byapar. Tobe maatrar taarotomyo to thaakei. Satyajit Ray-er porichito ek bhodrolok bhiR bus-e nijer pocketmaari hochhe bemaalum bujhte pereo pocketmaarke "na" bolte paarenni, sref scene howar bhoye. kopaalguNe amar asukhta se porjaayer noy. Amar fat-free vanilla flavoured soft served yogurt-e bhaag bosaate elei ami koRa golaay "na" bole di. pocketmaar-er kkhetre sei na-er songe amar dosh anguler pNyach-o taar dui kaaner opor probol bege borshito hobe bolei amar bishwas. Kintu emon dakabuko amio kichhu kichhu poristhitite nirostro, akkhom, asohaay. Jemon shyenchokkhu, kortobyobodhe udbuddho waiter-ke mokabila korar poristhiti. ek chumuk dite na ditei jini douRe ese amar jol/coke zero-r glass othoba coffee-r cup kaana porjonto bhorti kore diye jaan. Taar ei totporota jodi amar abishwa...